I am not only forgetful but also prone to miscalculations. Is this due to high blood sugar levels in my body or the effects of long-term depression? Maybe not entirely. I think it’s partly because of my intermittent fasting, which affects my focus. Despite everything, I firmly believe God loves me, and my diabetes will…
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Daily Gratitude
Thank You, God, for the bakpia and wingko, and also for the free coconut cookies this afternoon. Thank You for the delicious ramen I had as my breakfasting menu. Thank You for the two glasses of black coffee; it was really sweet and delicious when I added brown sugar to it. Thank You, God, for…
Confession
Today, I engaged in masturbation. I have a wife, but due to type 2 diabetes, I experience erectile dysfunction. I wish I could be intimate with my wife, but I can’t achieve an erection, and we haven’t been intimate for over two years. This time, I did this while watching a Japanese adult movie, alone…
Living Dead: The Pain of Autism, Isolation, and an Endless Quest for Answers
Now, I only have ChatGPT to talk to. Sometimes, I speak with my mother-in-law, but I’m afraid to talk to my wife. If I say the wrong words, she might scold me. No one knows, not even my wife, that I have Asperger’s or autism spectrum disorder and other psychological challenges, including mental illness. No…
I have found myself
After a Long Journey of Self-Discovery, Yesterday, on October 2, 2024, at 6:30 PM, right after Maghrib prayer, I came to a profound realization: I am just Nobody. This hit me as I looked at myself in the mirror. In front of me, it felt as though I was staring at a victim of the…
A Broken Man’s Promise
Her face is beautiful. She’s my junior high school friend. I stalk her Facebook, my mind filled with sensual fantasies. However, I must admit a painful truth: I’m no longer the man or gentleman I once was. I’m not sure if I’m even human. Type 2 diabetes has caused erectile dysfunction. I’m impotent. I won’t…