Now, I need to strengthen my mind and convert Rp. 100,000,000 to dollars, which equals approximately $6,504 USD.
Once I have the money I need (as converted above), I will move out and rent a small house for myself.
Since childhood, I’ve been taught to take the blame, and now, as I approach 45 at the end of September, I wonder if things will always remain the same.
Currently, I live, sleep, and eat in my mother-in-law’s house. She constantly blames me for things I haven’t done because she’s forgetful. For example, she misplaced her brown sugar and accused me of stealing it. Later, when my wife found where her mother had put the brown sugar, her mom simply asked me to understand that she’s old and forgetful.
In another instance, she forgot where she put her granddaughter’s money and blamed me again, claiming there was a thief in the house.
Today, she asked me, “Where are the knives?” I responded that she probably forgot where she placed them, suggesting they might be around somewhere. She suddenly scolded me, angry with my answer.
I believe I am mentally strong, though I no longer have any self-esteem. I realize I have nothing left: no job, no income, and no life.
I’ve made a promise to myself. It won’t be long before I leave this place to live on my own. I will be strong because the outside world will present greater challenges than what I face here. Consider this my mental training program to prepare for the real world.