Nobody knows what I am facing right now. They just make their own conclusions and give me advice I don’t even need. I hold a grudge against my wife, and the only way to get revenge is by leaving her. There are three people currently on my waiting list, ready to suffer. I always remember what they have done to me things I could never forget.
The world outside is really beautiful, but I never had the chance to enjoy it. I don’t have a life, and I’m just too shy to meet people who know me. God, forgive me. I have abandoned my prayer schedule again. God. I beg You to let me discover the formula of Square 9. I promise to share 50/50 with You every time I withdraw the profit. I promise to build free public infrastructure and donate the rest of the money to non-government organizations.
Dear God, please guide me to understand the lessons I should take from You to make this trial come to an end. Please help me let my ego die. You are the Answerer of prayers. Please also guide me to finish my research. I truly cannot do anything without Your permission.
Dear God, I am aware I am just a sinner, and I feel guilty for it. I cannot make any more promises because I am not sure I can keep them. But from the depths of my heart, I need Your help every second of my life. With every breath I take, I truly need You.
Dear God, I am powerless without You. If You don’t help me, I am helpless and hopeless. Please help me.