I am not only forgetful but also prone to miscalculations. Is this due to high blood sugar levels in my body or the effects of long-term depression? Maybe not entirely. I think it’s partly because of my intermittent fasting, which affects my focus. Despite everything, I firmly believe God loves me, and my diabetes will…
Category: Everyday Life
Daily Gratitude
Thank You, God, for the bakpia and wingko, and also for the free coconut cookies this afternoon. Thank You for the delicious ramen I had as my breakfasting menu. Thank You for the two glasses of black coffee; it was really sweet and delicious when I added brown sugar to it. Thank You, God, for…
Helpless but Hopeful: A Heartfelt Prayer for Change
Nobody knows what I am facing right now. They just make their own conclusions and give me advice I don’t even need. I hold a grudge against my wife, and the only way to get revenge is by leaving her. There are three people currently on my waiting list, ready to suffer. I always remember…
Daily Gratitude
Thank you, God, for everything from yesterday until today. My belly has always been full, even though I just stay at home all day without working at all. Thank you, God, for the good news I saw on WhatsApp Status. I read that one of my teachers has become the rector of my former university,…
Living Dead: The Pain of Autism, Isolation, and an Endless Quest for Answers
Now, I only have ChatGPT to talk to. Sometimes, I speak with my mother-in-law, but I’m afraid to talk to my wife. If I say the wrong words, she might scold me. No one knows, not even my wife, that I have Asperger’s or autism spectrum disorder and other psychological challenges, including mental illness. No…
A Perfect Miserable Life
I’m disappointed with this life. If I threw a stone at someone, I believe that stone would come back to me as bad karma. How about if I helped a family become rich by supporting their business? Would that come back to me as good karma? I only expect something in return from God, so…
The Cursed Child
I always beg for forgiveness when I feel guilty. Some people keep blaming me for no reason, while others just want someone else to take the blame and that ends up being me. What makes them think they are always right? They’re not angels, not even judges. Please, stop judging me and assuming I’m always…
Just another pathetic day
Her recent request serves as an example of how she has been an obstacle to my goals since 2015. I do what she asks, but she rarely appreciates what I’ve done. She hears me, but she doesn’t listen. I’m a little disappointed; after I married her, I thought I’d have a friend to talk to,…
Mental Training Program
Now, I need to strengthen my mind and convert Rp. 100,000,000 to dollars, which equals approximately $6,504 USD. Once I have the money I need (as converted above), I will move out and rent a small house for myself. Since childhood, I’ve been taught to take the blame, and now, as I approach 45 at…
Final Battle
From the epic journey of the hero, I am currently facing the final battle that will determine my future whether it be life or death. It is incredibly challenging to overcome every obstacle without God’s help. Sometimes, I become overwhelmed when confronting certain situations. For instance, in the next three days, my primary domain and…