I am not only forgetful but also prone to miscalculations. Is this due to high blood sugar levels in my body or the effects of long-term depression? Maybe not entirely. I think it’s partly because of my intermittent fasting, which affects my focus. Despite everything, I firmly believe God loves me, and my diabetes will be cured someday.
Recently, I sent an SEO report via WhatsApp to one of my clients, hoping she would transfer the monthly fee to my account promptly. However, her only response was, “Muhun a.”. From managing two clients’ websites and their SEO performance, I earn Rp. 200,000 per month. Converted to USD, that’s around $12.53. Additionally, my brother-in-law gives me Rp. 100,000 monthly as a form of goodwill, from which I allocate Rp. 25,000 to my wife. In total, I earn $17.23 each month. This small income goes toward satisfying my sugar cravings with cookies and my caffeine addiction with coffee.
For my daily living expenses, I rely on my wife. It sounds pathetic, but it is only temporary until I finish my Foreign Exchange Research Formula. Once completed, I hope to earn significantly more. However, my journey is complicated. Alongside my research, I am also battling type 2 diabetes, which has prolonged the process more than I anticipated.
I once had a dream, a beautiful vision of a perfect life. But that dream turned into a nightmare. My mother cursed me, my friends betrayed me, my sisters seemed to take pleasure in my suffering, and even my wife has become a barrier to my goals. The year 2016 was a tragedy when my dreams crumbled, and those closest to me broke my future.
Today is Thursday, December 4th, 2024. Only 27 days remain until the new year, 2025. Time passes, and life goes on. Despite the hardships, I continue to hope. I am determined to finish my work and complete my Foreign Exchange Formula research. I believe that my type 2 diabetes will be cured, and my financial, spiritual, and social life will improve next year.
I will begin living my perfect life in 2025, right after I escape from this current situation.