I have no idea how long the Exile has dominated my life. Is it because of the Codependent’s faults or The Helper who has helped too much, to the point where the people I’ve helped are asking for more and expressing their gratitude by betraying me?
The Performer’s Disappearance
The Performer has disappeared after I realized the true nature of my friends, who only approach me when they need my help. Once they no longer need me, they simply leave me and abandon me, without even caring when I need their help. I believe the Performer is deeply disappointed with my friends’ attitudes and regrets what he has done so far. As of now, I don’t even know if he’s still alive.
Right now, it’s just the exile accompanied by the firefighter who, suddenly and unconsciously, often triggers defense mechanisms that cause me to experience psychosomatic symptoms and be attacked by a number of complicated diseases.
Now, I’m trying to let the Manager come back to slowly fix my life. I’ve also contacted the Firefighter and asked him to stop being impulsive, to stop getting angry so that my health can start to improve. Let the Manager take care of the Exile and all the other family members. Trust me, everything will be better, especially after my research is finished and I’ve managed to save enough money to rent a house outside, I will immediately move out of my in-laws’ house so that the lives of the internal family members will improve and become harmonious again.